“Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
A few weeks ago, I ended up in the ER for severe abdominal pains. I couldn’t stand up straight. I couldn’t walk without pain from each step. I was just overall in a lot of pain. Through an ultrasound, the doctor said that they found bleeding in my uterus that was the source of my pain. He said that it was probably nothing, but put me on best rest for 7 days just to be safe.
To say I was very nervous about it would be an understatement. As much as the doctor thought it was nothing, he did say that there was a chance that bleeding is also a sign of an impending miscarriage.
There was that word again, “miscarriage.”
The thoughts that went through my mind as that word came out of his mouth were that of dread and anxiety.
“Here we go again,” I thought to myself as I was trying to hold back the tears. I knew deep down, though, that we hadn’t come this far into the pregnancy for it to end, yet again. The last two pregnancies got as far as about 6 weeks each. Both ending before I got to ever see them on an ultrasound or feel them moving in my belly. But both, just as precious to me as this one. I was not ready to loose yet another baby.
I started praying.
And everyday of being on bed rest, I started to realize something. God started showing me what true rest really is. All the anxiety and stress about the pregnancy and the burden of always thinking the worst will end up happening was taken away. Through my prayer that week, I was given a peace that only God can give. A peace that truly put my mind, not just my body, at rest.
Sometimes, when we think of rest we think of a physical rest. Which is true at some points in life. But have you ever thought of the fact that maybe He was more talking about putting your mind at rest? I know that sometimes my mind will go a thousand different directions going from one thought to the next about the future, about jobs, about the baby, etc that it never slows down to reflect what is going on in that moment and all that God has brought us through already.
God showed me that week, that slowing down my mind and giving all those thoughts to Him, will be the most restful thing that I could ever do. Like it says in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.” If God has already worked out a plan for our lives, then why should we worry about and be distraught about the future? Why not just lay it down and accept the gifts of peace and rest that He is so willingly able to give and know that He has it all worked out?
The rest I now feel in my mind about the duration of this pregnancy is something that I could have never come to on my own. God has been with me through and I am daily reminded that He has never left in the first place.
No matter what you are going through, know that God is there and ready to give you peace and rest in any situation. Just lean on Him and lay it down before. He has been there and always will be there for you!